When your dad goes to heaven

So, since I last wrote my dad(step) went home to heaven.  We are 
missing him greatly. I found out early in the morning on wed the 
20th.  I looked at my phone and noticed my mom had called.  I 
had 
put my phone to silent for some strange reason so I didn't 
know she 
had called. Instantly I knew something important must 
have had 
happened.  I happened to be in the bathroom when I 
checked the phone. 
So I decided to wait to see if mom would call 
my wife. A minute later 
Pam knocks on the door.  After mom 
told me that dad had past I was 
in shock for a 
second. Then was 
sad because I had lost another father. 
So I cried on my wifes 
shoulder for a bit then got my clothes on and 
headed to the 
hospital to meet 
with the family. On my way there I was 
remembering my dad and all the good he had 
done in my life and 
others. 
I was thinking about all of the fathers in my life 
that 
had past away 
that made a impact in my life. Right away I 
thought of Grandpa 
Ernest, 
Willardth Sr, Pastor Aaron, and 
Pastor Ed Jackson.  Pastor Ed Jackson 
of course is my dad.  He 
is the one that raise me since I was 9 and 
the one I knew I could 
call if I needed to talk or just needed to laugh.  
He is one of 
my heroes and a great man.  As, I drove I realized I was 
upset 
with the fact that I had lost another father.  I had lost 3 
fathers 
in 3 years, all in the same month and within ten days of 
each other.  
Then, God's comfort came over me and he told me that 
He has other fathers 
for me and He always will be there to take 
care of me.  He reminded me 
that He is the Father of all fathers 
and He loves me dearly.  During all 
this I was praising Him and 
bawling at the same time.  I thought how 
blessed I am for having 
great men in my life to love on me and be in my 
life because they 
love me and love who I am.  So, after all the tears and 
sorrow I 
felt 
for a moment I thought this is a great day because my dad 
went 
home to be with the Lord.

So what do I do now?  Well, I am the oldest male in my family in Seattle.  

I've been thinking of how I was going to be a father figure to the young 

men in my family.  I already do spend much time with the kids but I'm 

thirty-three and very young myself.  This will be new for all of us.  I have 

two younger brothers that are still in the house with my mom.  My 

nephew is in need of more males himself plus he is only 21.  I have 

younger cousins that don't have fathers in the home.  Pray for me and 

my boys.  My goal, as I said last week, was to take our family to the next 

level.  When I wrote "Declaration" I was thinking dad would be there to 

help me.  Now I know the my Heavenly Father is enjoying my dad and that 

I have fathers to come to be my mentors.  Most importantly, my Lord and 

Savior will be my help in raising these boys into men.  We will go to the 

next level.  That is what the Lord wants, my family wants, and my dad 

wanted.  I hope this inspires other men whether they have kids or not 

to become a father.  What is a father?  He is a man that will be there for 

friends and family.  He will make the sacrifices necessary to help you be 

a better person.  He is a man that will lift you up and believe in you.

He is a Father.

Pray for my mom she is a single women again with two kids in the house.

She loves the Lord and leans on Him daily.  But, pray for wisdom, guidance  

self-control with my silly brothers lol