My Family of Women

Mom, you are my heaven your prayers have brought me through Through heartache and pain Through shame and gain Mom, you are my heaven From my first words to my first step From my first bike to my first kiss. You were always there Mom, you are my heaven Through my attitudes My selfishness My knowing-it-all You knew all I needed Mom, you are my heaven Now, I am grown Now, I have grown Because of your love Your kindness Your protectiveness and your prayers Mom, you are my heaven The sun has stop shining on you Because the Son is now shining on you Heaven has a new angel Mom, you are my heaven.

I had a great day with the FAM yesterday. We relaxed, picked up a tree, saw someone steal from the store then steal a car(crazy), decorated our tree and watched a movie. Its the simple things. Except for the car thing that was just weird and crazy. Merry Christmas

I love hard I love deep I fall completely in I love hard I love deep I'm slow to open I love hard I love deep But when I do I love hard I love deep If I'll trust you with my heart I'll love hard I'll love deep But if you break my heart I love hard I love deep I'll be done with you I love hard I love deep I will forgive I love real I love love I try to forget I love deep I love hard I am me

Love is indescribable We hear from many people.  Why do you love me?  We give many answers like "I love your eyes", "you are so sweet to me", or "we are soul-mates".  But Love is still an action word.  Or better yet a person but we will talk about that another time.  When you truly love someone you are driven to "do".  Whether you want to or not.  You know what they want, you know how they are(good or bad or both), you lift them up when they don't deserve it, you become unselfish.  Are you perfect at it? NO, not even close!  But the more you love them the more you will sacrifice what you want for what they want.  You give without wanting anything in return except the acknowledgement that they know and appreciate that you love them.  But how do you put Love into words. I can't do that!  I am not skilled like that, nobody is.  The love that you feel for someone is so strong there are no words but there are actions.  Di...

I've seen you from a far Swag for days, classy Mysterious righteous You've taken hold of my heart You have changed my life Ms Dream Your eyes cause eruptions in my spirit I'm caught up with joy from your smile A kiss I have never felt drives me forward. You have changed my life Ms Dream I'm infatuated by your walk As your curves keep me locked on you The strides of those legs speeds up my heart You have changed my life Ms Dream I want you, I always have Come to me, my love Draw to me, don't run You've changed my life Ms Dream Fine, I'll keep chasing You won't get away my love You are my beautiful sweet Dream For you have changed my life Ms Dream

My daughter Ephesia Williams is now the new Teen Plus America!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Nuff said!!

Freedom What is freedom Are we free to do whatever we want Free to say whatever we want What makes us free Free from what Who set us free These questions can be tough to answer In america we love to feed on "freedom" Yet we don't know what it is. We have sacrificed freedom for security lately, because we didn't want to take responsibility for our own actions or we are scared because we can't control everything Fear makes us lose discipline and takes advantage of our own imaginations but This is about me, not America So I will answer them from my own life Freedom to me is not being forced to sin It means I have the choice to do what is right Yes I have the right to say what I want but... I have the right to do or say what is right also Which means its good to be silent sometimes What makes us free is really who makes us free His name is Jesus He did what was right so I could have the choice to do the same Because of Jesus I'm free from my...

We are God’s instruments.  We are His music.  Music is suppose to inspire just like Lauryn said.  just like any other instrument we can’t do anything without the Musician and His skilled hands. Love, joy, peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control what a sound they make.   Once the Musician gets His hands on you He tunes you with His word.  It comes through hearing the word, through convos with the All mighty, through wise men and wise women who has word flowing out of them.  This incredible music that comes out of us from His skillz is love, joy peace, patience, kindness, goodness, faithfulness, gentleness, and self-control.  Which inspires whoever hears Him.  They gravitate towards Him.  They can’t help but acknowledge the sweet song of Grace.  Their body can’t help but to move to that sweet sweet sound.  So ya See the instrument can never take credit for the Music that is coming out. ...

When the storm is coming things get dark. When the storm is coming gray skies loom over my head dealing death stares. When the storm is coming you feel it in your bones like our old motha's in the front row When the storm is coming our teeth rattle with anticipation of the coming rough precipitation Then the storm hits ......silence We pray that it will stop We pray that it will end No one wants to go through the winds and rain of pain I see some fold because they can't handle this latest storm I see some fight until they are knocked down blow by blow But they fought with honor and came back stronger Then I see some win what a glorious sight This is the time where you see who you are and who are your friends When the storm is in your face bucking up to you like a bully in the hood whatcha gonna do huh. You ain't got nothing. Where ya momma.  Where ya friends.  Gimme that and this too. Awww you cryin' now. Lil punk. Is this gonna be the time you stand up t...

So as of April 9th I became the father of an adult.  It is kind of surreal.  Pam and I used to think 10 years from now our kids will be 18, 17, 16, 16.  Now that it is here it is a little weird.  Slowly we are learning to let go of the teenage parenting and starting to understand what parenting an adult will be like.  One, communication will be more like friends talking or mentor-ship   Two, dealing with them making mistakes that you saw coming a mile away but they wouldn't listen.  Three, enjoying the freedom.  Four, enjoying our girls becoming successful, Jesus filled adults.  We of course are still learning ourselves so in another ten years I might change this statement(wow, Pam and I are now rookies again). But until then, let us lift up a glass of water(I am out of white grape juice).   Here's to becoming parents to adults.

I am a gamer I am old school I don't whine about the difficulty I don't whine about shotguns being over-powered Instead I'll hit you with a pipe like Streets of Rage and call it a day I just game I played Atari boxing, Contra, X-men, Street Fighter There was no fuss Saving Zelda, dreaming like Mario 2, cutting steel as Ninja Gaiden,  Just give me 3 men and some teriyaki and I'll figure out the rest I just game I don't lose reality I still love on my family I go to work I gets things done I am a gamer

There is a lot to the story so I am going to focus on God’s main goal and who God is. gen 3:8 Then the man and his wife heard the sound of the Lord God as he was walking in the garden in the cool of the day, and they hid from the Lord God among the trees of the garden. 9 But the Lord God called to the man, “Where are you?” 10 He answered, “I heard you in the garden, and I was afraid because I was naked; so I hid.”   Obviously our Lord visited Adam a lot to ask the question “Where are you?”  Showing that God wants relationship. But because of our sin we were separated from Him.  humanity had to pay for this but how?  Jesus, and He was already going to before the foundations of the world.   matt 22:34 Hearing that Jesus had silenced the Sadducees, the Pharisees got together. 35 One of them, an expert in the law, tested him with this question: 36 “Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?” 37 Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with...

It's mind blowing   The production of this destruction is revolutionary As kegs of gunpowder go off in my head I think where am I going I thought I started this journey on a freeway.   It was smooth and fast. I could see what was coming around every turn. Any sinner with their sin could be seen and pointed at with disgust. My daily bible beating was done without fail. But as my hidden sins continue to mount up. The road has seem to have shrunk Unto a highway. The fast track for Hell I swear it was all down hill. Yet at the time my highway was heaven in my eyes. Full of judgmental behavior and supposed-to's Then my hidden sins started weighing me down like my eyelids after driving from Portland to Seattle with no sleep  Causing me to get on the off ramp and make a right on front street On the surface this street seemed painfully slow. Full of stoplights and caution flags But in reality this surface street caused me to get passed ...

As I go through my journey with Christ I continue to want to be more like Him.  But what does that mean?  From what I can tell it means I choose the sinner over the sin.  I love the person more than being right.  It means that I am THE sinner that Jesus loved more than the sin(that he hates) that I do.  It means I'm not as judgmental as I used to be because I realized I'd be judging myself.  It means the sin that people do doesn't shock me like it used to because I used to do that same thing.  It means when I read that Jesus hung out with the scum of the earth so He could be their friend and love on them.  He was hanging with me.  I am the scum of the earth(I am made from dirt by the way).  Jesus always shows full Grace and full Truth wherever He went.  He got to know the people He talked to.  He got into their lives so that His "way" was a way to at the very least listen to.  All I know is if someone came to me ...

What a amazing week.  First my daughter wins the Northwest Plus America Pageant. Then my eldest daughter gets accepted into University of Washington at Bothel and Washington State University. Wow what a week.  My other four daughters are doing excellent in school and have dreams of doing well in life.  My family is awesome.  I love them dearly!!!!  Lord you are  aaaaamazinnnnng

I had a amazing weekend with my children!  We went to Vancouver, WA to watch Ephesia,16, win her first pageant.  Phee was amazing.  She answered the questions with poise.  She was graceful and elegant.  She showed joy and happiness wherever she went.  My other girls were supportive, loving and excited for Phee.  Pam of course is very proud of her as am I.  My mom and both of my aunts was able to come down too.  I am soooo blessed to be a dad of these great women God has us raising.  When we heard Phee's name we all freaked out except mines was on the inside because I was security also lol.  The place erupted in support also.  Wow what a weekend, the Northwest Plus America Pageant was amazing.  Intelligent beautiful women showing off how God made them, which is "beautisome" (beautiful and awesome).   Ephesia getting involved in pageanting (another made up word) has been a great experience for the whole family.  If...

Lord I will follow you I promise Son will you go over here and say hi to him but God I don't want to Son will you bring him some food but God this is my last piece Son will you put me first but God I need to by this new dress Son will you believe the best of people but God do you hear what he said about me Son will you stop judging people but God do you see where they live Son will you treat people like I would treat them but God they are thugs and dirty I'm so lonely but God My rent is due but God I have no food but God I have no home but God I feel like a failure but God The doctors say I'm going to die but God I have no education so how am I going to get a job but God I cant walk but God My sins are too heavy but God It's impossible but God

as my hands touched your skin my mind goes to when it began hours of talking and laughing feeling each other out to see if we meet in the middle of love then,,,,,,, it happened that one night when it all changed butterflies fly into action when we see each other the temperature gets warm the nerves shake with ecstasy but when we lock eyes in a crowded room there’s only us every look every movement every touch means the world time away feels like hours of pain the smallest of kisses can cause an eruption of love an avalanche of passion this love is real it can never change it will live forever love like this changes you

people over pride that’s how I ride with my gangsta lean of love I’m above the petty I ride with peace I purposefully choose people because pride leads to loneliness seclusion, separated from the right even if I am right I’ll be right by myself so I ride with peace with my hand on the wheel swerving dodging prideful potholes like mario vs. turtles Andretti has nothing on my skillz I flow through the traffic of my mind with ease These brake shoes of peace given to me by the Lord above would stop Optimus Prime and his crew in their tracks I ride with peace with my orange drink in my hand sipping the goodness of relaxing thoughts toward my brotha I ride into the sunset like Billy Kid, you don’t know me I ride with peace

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It’s written all on my face My love for you is real deep I open my mouth......can’t speak My left knee got so weak Maybe i’ll just dive How does love do this to me What is love doing to me Why can’t I stop loving you I guess its time I stop fighting it Maybe I’ll just dive My soul goal is to please you Your number one and my only one Your goals your dreams your aspirations I want the best for you Maybe I’ll just dive The touch of your fingertips The warmth of your kiss The way you lay in my arms Makes me want to dive Your hopes become mine My wants mean nothing My joys come from your smile And If I can share them with you forever I will dive

Some have wondered why I am so positive.  I have simply told them "it's because of Jesus".  This is true and the whole truth.  Jesus loves me.  Jesus has changed my life.  He healed my past, present and future.  He has changed my thinking.  My now is better and my future is bright because ultimately I will see Him face to face. The more I understand heavenly thinking the more positive I get.  The more I understand heavenly thinking the more I can forgive people.  The more I understand heavenly thinking the more I see people the way Christ sees people.  Which is a expectation of greatness.  Christ made us all with the expectation that we will love Him and each other.  There is no need to say negative things to people.  Why because God made us individually different for a specific goal in mind.  For every person that you say negative things about I'm sure there is a person saying negative things about you.  It's j...

12 eyes 6 noses 12 ears 6 smiles 12 legs 6 bodies one love 6 personalities 6 different conversations 6 different styles one love Christ made you confident courageous curious cute cuddly  and kind one love To my daughters Moriah Makaelah Ephesia Taja Ruby and Esther I love you

love such a crazy thing it never stops its on the clock but it all feels insane like magenta moss and red pumpkins love is the thing that changes the rains of pain to the joy for this boy longevity, loyalty, and support makes living with love a life worth living

I’m done Tired This dirty dizzy feeling is crushing my soul Scrumptious, far from it Delicious, as green moldy possum Who needs a lobotomy When the pain takes my mind anyways The lining of my stomach aches with delirious pain My hands burn with murderous fire I’m sick and tired of the crap or maybe I’m just........... Tired I’m Done

From the moment I was born from moma's womb My emotions have been volatile, under the surface Like a volcano waiting to burst lay a increasingly spectacular power to destroy These emotions let me feel life Even the little larvae emotions snake though my veins with power It tries to control me My actions my words The ectesy of these feelings can be mind blinding Joy lust happiness sadness all powerful enough for me to be controled by it It can be exausting at times fighting such cruel beast They are monsters of all sizes ready to eat every thought of my mind Yet I fight on This is all I can do for it will not end nor slow down It will continue But in the end I win ServantPrince