My Family of Women

"Heaven is not a city it's a Kingdom".  These words were spoken by my daughter Ruby just minutes before we found out that one of our neighbor boys died in a freak home accident.   I knew him well, he was only 11. We had played football just a week ago. This event has shaken our apartment community, our family, and of course his family.  For a full day they mourned in our cabana, not moving and barely eating.  I can't imagine losing any of my kids.  This is a reminder that we are not promised our next breath.  That we can't wait to be in each others lives.  Don't think "I can wait to tell them about Jesus" because you may not live to tell them.  Or "I can share Jesus with them later, they will be here tomorrow".  They may not be.  I feel like I could have done more in the little boys life.  That I could have spoken more to him or something but I do know that I gave him a opportunity to see Jesus.  I guess I feel like I coul...

Recklessly Authentic: That awkward moment when...... : You see some one live and in person who you are "friends" with on facebook and they look you dead in the eye and don't recognize you.  Uh ye... Yep my 100th post will be to support my wife and her blog.  I Love you Pam!!!!!  Now click the link and read it!!!!!!!! :) http://recklesslyauthentic.blogspot.com/2012/12/that-awkward-moment-when.html?showComment=1354809941969#c1284510535381090082

I'm a nobody my story is not bad my story is not good its just like yours full of sin I'm a nobody I'm tryin' to tell everybody anyone who will listen anyone of any culture anyone that wants more out of life anyone that has sinned once or is full of sin I'm tryin' to tell everybody Bout Somebody that makes me whole that has healed my mind, body and soul that makes any situation small compared to Him that redeemed me from ALL my sin Bout Somebody HE can save anybody yes you liar yes you thief yes you idolater yes you adulterous one, yes anyone!! HE can save anybody

To be frank my love is fragile It's not as free as I thought Although my adoption is final Agape, I am not able The adoration of The One A gift given so freely Yet, I choose to not mirror it Because my funk has depleted me The apples I chose to eat Has sent me off the cliff But He pulled the rug from under death So He's able able able to free my fragile heart

Its been a great weekend.  All my girls were at the house having a lot of fun.  We got a tree and put up the lights.  We made banana apple cider(or spice like Starbucks) its my own creation and it tasted very good in my opinion.  The Littles, Ruby and Essie, had a battle with their older sisters, Moriah and Ephesia, for the right to be called the Mediums.  The Littles are very tired of the name because they are older and wiser now.  At least as far as a 9 year old and 8 year old can be.  After typing out the Mediums I'm not sure I want them to be called the Mediums myself, hmmm.  Anyways, the battle was a good one and very competitive.  "Sorry" can be a vicious vicious game!  But in the end the "Bigs" win and shall continue to call them the Littles.  We had some family over.  We laughed and played.  We decorated the tree.  I had a great time and so did the family.  Then Sunday we went to church.  It was sooo...

John 8:6 They were using this question as a trap, in order to have a basis for accusing him. But Jesus bent down and started to write on the ground with his finger. 7 When they kept on questioning him, he straightened up and said to them, “Let any one of you who is without sin be the first to throw a stone at her.” 8 Again he stooped down and wrote on the ground. 9 At this, those who heard began to go away one at a time, the older ones first, until only Jesus was left, with the woman still standing there. 10 Jesus straightened up and asked her, “Woman, where are they? Has no one condemned you?” 11 “No one , sir,” she said. “Then neither do I condemn you,” Jesus declared. “Go now and leave your life of sin.” _____________________________________ I left what the woman did out because it really doesn't matter.  No matter what sin you have done there will always be people ready to throw stones.  To be honest I have been one of those stone throwing people and...

Singing, dancing, screaming, hairbrush Human monkeys swinging on daddy jungle gym Red snouts dripping goo of winter Late night cheesy nachos Buttery popcorn in my hair Silly skits and bratz dolls I miss my girls Now they are all growed up Curling irons flat irons Movies clothes arguments boys Jobs ambitions goals College adulthood freedom My girls have grown up Becoming responsible women Still I see them as my girls I love them so Dad

I am very happy that the election is OVER.  I got so tired of hearing both parties rag on each other. Political debates on Twitter.  Really!? on Twitter you want to have a debate on Twitter wow!  Facebook posts for or against whatever or whoever.  Ads ads and more ads.  I mean it was everywhere.  I couldn't watch Hulu without a ad come up about the elections or referendums.  Now we can get back to normal.  Most people(including me) not really watching what is going on in our government or state. Dancing with the stars, sports(I'm good for this one too) and really really not paying attention to whats happening around the world. Yep, back to normal.  Focused on me, myself and I.  It's not selfish at all.  I mean why should I care. Signed A concerned citizen of self

Dear Abby, :) So what do you do when the flat iron is left on? Ladies I need your help.  The women in my house continuously leave the flat iron on. I'm married with 6 daughters of which four are teenagers.  I have been telling them to unplug it.  I have been unplugging it myself but haven't seen great results from the ladies.  So what should I do?  My little one has already been burned by it and I don't want any accidents to happen because of something that can be avoided.  Am I being to cautious?  Am I being a silly guy that doesn't know anything? Please help!! Drowning in Women Seattle, WA lol

Heaven on Earth What does Heaven look like? Is it beautiful in every way possible? Colors all around. Red, blue, green, purple, etc. Is there trees and lakes. The blue sky and huge mountains. What does Heaven look like? Is there ushers with white gloves or deacons with 3 piece suits on. Is it ladies with 4 inch heels dressed to kill or little girls with there hair done with a thrill. What does Heaven look like? Is it a Black church, a White church or a Hispanic church. Is it a big church, a little church or a mega church Is it a church at all or even The church Is it wealthy or poor? Fat or thin Ugly or gorgeous What is Heaven!? Heaven is full of color but not about it Full of joy and laughter But not at someone Where everyone is welcomed Because they followed the One Where everyone loves and is loved Because hate isn't tolerated Where skin color is embraced Not erased Different skills are praised Not for glory, but for the One that gave the skill in th...

Hey everyone, just letting you know what has been happening lately. New Job New Season New Attitude Same Great God I am now on the right road.  Right in line with what God wants me to do.  I feel more alive than I have been in a while.  I'm very excited for the future of my family, my life and the church as a whole.  In ten months God  will reveal another part of His plan if I heard Him right and I'm excited for His word!  All I know is I get to do what I have been doing for years and I now get paid to do it (which is encouraging people and to live for the Lord) lol wow! John 10:10  The thief does not come except to steal, and to kill, and to destroy. I have come that they may have life, and that they may have  it  more abundantly.   My life has been very abundant even in the tough times :).  Thanks for reading and I hope to write more post soon.

I am the worst of the worst The dirtiest of the dirty The sinner of all sinners I do not deserve the victory I have The joy that I own I grin from ear to ear in my heart Grace covers me daily and I had nothing to do with it I just respond to it I've been clean and transparent not perfect Weights have been thrown of my body Doubt shame condemnation all off of me Who knew this scoundrel could be blessed this much Oh the blood of Jesus! It makes me white as snow I was in a prison of sin But now I'm free! I'm forgiven of all my sins Redeemed from hell and the grave I'm living in the Kingdom of heaven I'm loved by my Lord Jesus I am free! Free to worship Free to serve my Lord Free to love Him So if you wonder why I praise, worship and dance for my Lord with all of my heart Ask yourself if you just became free from death row Wouldn't you celebrate the one that took your place so you can be release from prison Wouldn't you celebrate your freedom Wouldn't you b...

Sometimes your fathers don't know your name But the joy they bring Fills my heart and makes it sang When I was young I gunned around and transformed my body Because the father I copied was more than meets the eye Yet he was still my papi as I grew I knew I wanted to be a good dad Because my father made silly sounds and goofy faces As the embraces of nations wrapped around my father's sweaters, hoggie sandwiches, and occupation of bringing joy. Then I got older and was bless To have a father that showed me how he loved on his kids and lead them to Christ. He was part of many generations of Christ followers that have penetrated the enemy's camp to bring back many p.o.s.(prisoners of sin) in many countries. I have been blessed but there is more 6'8 and can sang with such power and compassion It only took a nod and a knowing smile to make me want to follow this man of vision and passion. I have one more He said the best is yet to come He said we can do it He said fight the ...

  God is so faithful. I had been struggling in believing the events that was going on right in front of my face. Prophetic events that are happening right now or about to happen. So I talked to the Lord about the lack of faith. Also, when we get taking to Heaven how amazing it would be yet how it seemed like I was struggling with believing it could happen. Then He gave me these verses Luke 24:25-26(go read it). All the sudden I was full of joy because Jesus came to me and called me a fool(lol).  It just confirmed that I'm not the only one to see the things right in front of me and still struggle to believe. It actually strengthened my faith because just like Jesus came to them, He came to me. I have been very excited about "the catching away" and seeing my Lord but just like a great gift sometimes it blows me away so much that I just stare at it hours after I have been given it. It becomes so unbelievable that its hard to see it even though it is in your hands. This is al...

I am a liar cheater thief adulterer disobedient disrespectful ungrateful selfish greedy mean man. These are some of the sins that I was enslaved to. But Jesus...... Now I'm clean, pure and righteous. I look to pay God back for what He has done. But I can never repay all that He has done. At times I wonder if I'm "saved" enough to enter the kingdom because I still struggle with hearing every word from the Lord and doing it. I keep asking myself am I worthy and ultimately I am not and can never be on my own. But the blood.... It covers me and keeps me clean. I'm hard on myself because I want to be more for my Lord. But He says your ok and just keep living for Me. Keep working out your faith by knowing Me more. Wake up with Me on your mind. With every breath praise My name. Go to bed dreaming of us being together forever. Love is a action word and because you love Me you will always want to do what I ask. Yes, you will mess up but I know your goal is to please Me and...

Our doors are always open We have no walls We have no ceiling No worship band But we have The Spirit When you walk in you feel, love With the first smile, warmth With hand extended, acceptance You hear laughter, joy As you walk, importance You pull up a seat, welcomed You start to talk, friendship You start to listen, family You begin to change, excitement You're weight is gone, lighter You're at home, Jesus Yes, you're home Jesus We are always open We will always welcome you We will share the love of Christ no matter the time because Jesus is 24hrs. ServantPrince 4/29/12

Jesus is very real and loves you 

He comes to me with His hand extended Hands red with blood I'm scared that I won't be worthy But I'm terrified of where I'm at So I grab h... Instantly I'm changed But don't look it I'm new But don't see it I'm renewed But I think the same I'm adopted But still feel pain I'm redeemed I'm born As we walk from mud to freedom I see the shackles of pass issues and sin fall off like leaves in autumn As we walk, the dust from the mud continues to hit the ground and it takes all my heaviness with it Death and destruction visited frequently in my life. But The I AM has changed that Now Life and abundance has come back from vacation to fill my life again I feel His arms wrapped around me even with the mud drenched clothes I realized the I AM didn't care about the clothes He wore, the place He lived in, what I looked like, or what I did. He just wanted to help His son to live in freedom As we walk my clothes become cleaner the stench is fadin...

Jesus is alive and loves us so much Amen!!!!!!!!

Shame is a death dealer The weight of the regret The heaviness of the depression It will crush you Shame Birth by sin Birth by comparison Birth by the devil Shame It can be debilitating crippling painful It feels like you can't breath lonely paranoid fear Is there any hope in this decrepit darkness Yes and His name is Jesus You don't have to live in shame Jesus is bigger than it You don't have to compare yourself any more Jesus loves you and created you He knows who you really are He knows what you were meant to be He knows your pain He knows your sorrows He has(past tense) set you free from sin It is already done just receive your Freedom From fear depression paranoia You can get out of the darkness You can have Love, Joy, Peace, Patient, Kindness, Goodness, Faithfulness Gentleness, Self-Control Because whom the Son sets free is free indeed Don't let shame destroy you Receive your freedom Go to the One that gives life And His name is J...

Today, as I was coming back from my child's school, I was listening to sports radio.  The talking heads coming out of my speakers reminded me that it was opening day for the Mariners baseball team.  The talking heads were speaking about their memories as a kid for opening day and family.  Also which sport was the most important at the time of their youth.  For one it was baseball and for the other it was football.  As for me it has always been football.  For the one that liked baseball, he was very excited about this opening day because he and his wife have a beautiful newborn child.  With this child, their first I might add, he was going to tell her all about the rules of the game and how fun it is.  Of course she can't talk yet but she can listen very well.  The other talked about how football was king in his household as a child.  His dad would come home from coaching and bring him and his brothers football pads to play in.  As t...

Why do I pray It's useless. (I Am here) Nothing happens Or I just don't see it (I Am here) I can get it done myself My marriage My work My family This sickness (I Am here) I can do it all. Ill work my way through it Ill make my spouse care Ill do all the work Ill fix my family Ill cure the disease Ill fix my own heart (I Am here) So why am I still struggling Why can't I work it out Why do I hurt so bad (I Am here) Why do I feel alone Who can I cry out too (I Am here) Why won't any one help Ring Hello (I Am here) Yes this is me Really?! Oh?... ok um sure...... Amen Click Did you really send him to pray for me Are you for me and want the best for me? What about the pain I'm in Will you help with that (I Am here) Are You really here like he said You was Ok ill bite. He said read John 3:16 and John 10:10-11 (Yes I am here All the things you want "right" in your life I also want for you. Your marriage fixed.  Done. ...

If someone gave u $100.  What would you say?  Thank you of course. What if they did it again? You would say thank you again. And so on and so on. What about the air you breath? Do you thank our generous Lord for that?  I believe you do because the air you breath came from Him too.  As a matter of fact He owns everything!  Now that I have established that.  For the last week or two I've been focusing on giving God the first part of my day. I must say it has been amazing.  I feel like I hear the Lord so clearly.  Also, it puts me in the proper perspective of; seek ye first the Kingdom of Heaven and all these things will be added to you and that everything is the Lord's.  Waking up in the morning  has been great!  By the way, I'm not a morning person at all. Why did I start doing this you ask?  Its simple, Jesus, also I'm going to the School of Generosity at my church.  The leaders there start their day off with "facetime". ...

Trust is not easily earned but can be easily lost. It can take years to build up trust but in a moment can be gone. Just like money it builds up as it sits in the bank creating interest. Then when you need it you pull it out.  Although, if you use it for a moment of fun, revenge, anger, pain, sorrow, etc it can be all gone and you have to start all over again. Many would never use 1,000,000 dollars so quickly in one day but yet we do it with the more valuable trust all the time.  Some say they would never do it with trust but in one moment, all gone!  Yet there is hope and His name is Jesus. Even though we misuse His trust all the time. He comes back and trusts us to be who He called us to be. Wow, what Grace!!  When you break the trust of a human it can take a lifetime to get it back or you may never get it back at all. That's just how we are without Jesus. But when you break the trust of God.  He turns around and trust you more.  He believes in you even i...

Clean is what I am Clean is how I feel The dirt and grime of my past Traded in for the sparkle and glow of my future I hid my shame guilt and regret Hoping it would fade away in the distant sky Heavy with the weight of sin I wanted to be clean but didn't know how then....... JESUS In a moment I confessed my sins The weight lifted off Although some of the dirt was caked on and caused pain when it came off It was well worth it. Issues are not issues anymore The past is not holding me down with its rusty chains Now I use those broken chains to tell people of how Jesus set me free I am clean

I thank God for forgiving me of ALL my sins. I thank Him for loving me even if nobody else will(still surprises me and humbles me). I lean on the King that has everything and is everything. The best part is you can have the Lord as your Lord too. Admit Jesus is Lord, that He died on the cross and rose again. Also ask Him to be Lord over your life with all your heart. Now your in the Kingdom of the Lord Jesus Christ and all the inheritance that comes with it

Today 2/29/12, I was amazed at the talent I saw today.  My dance group ministered at a big venue with other artist from the area. There was singers, rappers, dancers, steppers, poets, musicians and many others. All celebrating black history month. There was so much love in the place and plenty of laughter to go around. I'm sure the Lord enjoyed the positive relationships was formed today. I know my mom and I did. There was so much life and belief in people. The singers I heard today had such good voices that one person got up and fanned the singer cause he was so hot. Another started dancing cause of the quality of the song. Others were so appreciative of the artist there was standing ovations. What a great day. I even got to see a old classmate. So as it ended we shook hands and said thank yous. Then headed out the guarded gates that opened electronically. Walked up the tiny hill into a space to get my I.D. Checked then out to the car sadden by the amount of talent left in the pri...

A guarantee The Spirit in me is a guarantee that the Lord has me and wants me That He has a plan for me and a hope for my future A guarantee that He is who He says He is!! That I am who He says I am That “well done” is now and in my future Even when I’m down I still have my guarantee Even when I don’t see Him or feel Him I still have my guarantee Even as I am a Smith, I am more so a prince in the family and government of the King I will put on my princely robe and live as such because I know who my father is He is the King of kings The Lord of lords The Great and Wonderful One The King of His Kingdom He is the Lord Jesus Christ He is GOD!!!

It has been a wonderful weekend.  My daughter was in her first pageant.  My mom sung at Carnegie Hall and my eldest daughter was able to watch.  Last but not least I re-opened my Legal Shield business. This pageant for our family was a learning experience but a good one.  There was lots of time and money spent to help my daughter, Ephesia (Miss Seattle Teen Plus America), with this.  It was well worth it.  I believe she learned how to handle herself with poise under pressure and to smile when things don't go right.  Some people may laugh at pageants but I think its a very good way to give women confidence and a way to promote their platform that they're passionate about.  Did I mention that it was a plus-size pageant.  All the ladies were beautiful but my daughter was the best but I'm biased.   She walked with pride and comfortably in heels that I would never let her leave the house with lol.  There were set-backs through ou...

I've lost my flame I've lost my fire My desire is a liar Cause my heart is so lame I had my purpose I had my reason This season of roses Has failed with no completion When all hope was gone When all hope had sailed I prevailed because of the one that was jailed For a moment it seemed He had failed That He Bailed out on what He had mail But what He mailed can't come back failed The veil was torn in two so my heart wouldn't have to Now the fire and flame that raged my heart Is now a calm life giving river that prevailed over my soul Servantprince 1/5/12